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sacchanxdLong time no write.
Today was the first day of my finals! The first and the most stressful. Long story short I had to memorize 14 cases and their basic sciences I've studied this semester and present a random one. Oh and I'm in my 2nd year of med school, fyi.
Anyway.
I swear I have the worst procrastinating habits. I have been aware that this test was coming since the beginning of my semester, but not once did I choose to study the materials little by little from the start. Instead I say, "I'll study when it's a month to the test, that should give me enough time." then "A week to the test, two cases per day sounds okay.", and then it's three days, two days, and a day.
So my head basically exploded yesterday and I was so unbelievably nauseated with the stress and pressure. Literally had an emotional breakdown and cried for half an hour.
I don't understand why I do this to myself.
I've had similar tests four times before in the past semesters and the SAME THING happens each time. And every time I say this to anyone they all just go "Then stop procrastinating. *shrug*". WELL OH SHIT. LEMME GO AND TURN OF THAT PROCRASTINATION SWITCH NOW HOLD ON BRB.
Jk.
I know the answer is to just... not be lazy and suck it up. This post is just my way of saying I don't understand how my brain works sometimes. 危機感がない is the best way I can explain it.
But well I think I've sort of improved the past few semesters in terms of procrastination. Ish.
I... kinda sorta finished ~three shoujo mangas and an anime before I started studying? And maybe... maybe finished subbing an episode of TokiKake...?
Let's talk about those.
I read mangas regularly, it's not a big deal. But two days ago I read like the entirity of scanlated Pika Ichi chapters, finished Ookami Shoujo to Kuro Ouji, finished Watashi no Ookami-kun, and caught up on Horimiya. It's not much when you're talking about just reading mangas for a day, but I HAD AN EXAM THE DAY AFTER. WHY BRAIN.
I think past-me's motto is "Let future me worry about that."
Oh and I also downloaded animes out of the blue??? LiKEE???? Animes are so... 2014-me. I haven't watched a series in AGES other than One Piece. But I legit looked for good-looking finished shows on anichart and downloaded some. What a time to be jumping back into the otaku bandwagon, eh.
And that's how I ended up finishing ACCA: 13-ku Kansatsu-ka in a day.
It's a great series though Jean x Nino for life. Also it sounds so damn weird that they gotta elongate the "i" in Nino cause I'm used to Arashi Nino with a short "i". Niiiiiino.
Oh but my exams aren't over yet, still about three weeks more of it, haha. The rest starts on Monday.
What should I do on this short holiday?~~
x
Sacchan
Anyway.
I swear I have the worst procrastinating habits. I have been aware that this test was coming since the beginning of my semester, but not once did I choose to study the materials little by little from the start. Instead I say, "I'll study when it's a month to the test, that should give me enough time." then "A week to the test, two cases per day sounds okay.", and then it's three days, two days, and a day.
So my head basically exploded yesterday and I was so unbelievably nauseated with the stress and pressure. Literally had an emotional breakdown and cried for half an hour.
I don't understand why I do this to myself.
I've had similar tests four times before in the past semesters and the SAME THING happens each time. And every time I say this to anyone they all just go "Then stop procrastinating. *shrug*". WELL OH SHIT. LEMME GO AND TURN OF THAT PROCRASTINATION SWITCH NOW HOLD ON BRB.
Jk.
I know the answer is to just... not be lazy and suck it up. This post is just my way of saying I don't understand how my brain works sometimes. 危機感がない is the best way I can explain it.
But well I think I've sort of improved the past few semesters in terms of procrastination. Ish.
I... kinda sorta finished ~three shoujo mangas and an anime before I started studying? And maybe... maybe finished subbing an episode of TokiKake...?
Let's talk about those.
I read mangas regularly, it's not a big deal. But two days ago I read like the entirity of scanlated Pika Ichi chapters, finished Ookami Shoujo to Kuro Ouji, finished Watashi no Ookami-kun, and caught up on Horimiya. It's not much when you're talking about just reading mangas for a day, but I HAD AN EXAM THE DAY AFTER. WHY BRAIN.
I think past-me's motto is "Let future me worry about that."
Oh and I also downloaded animes out of the blue??? LiKEE???? Animes are so... 2014-me. I haven't watched a series in AGES other than One Piece. But I legit looked for good-looking finished shows on anichart and downloaded some. What a time to be jumping back into the otaku bandwagon, eh.
And that's how I ended up finishing ACCA: 13-ku Kansatsu-ka in a day.
It's a great series though Jean x Nino for life. Also it sounds so damn weird that they gotta elongate the "i" in Nino cause I'm used to Arashi Nino with a short "i". Niiiiiino.
Oh but my exams aren't over yet, still about three weeks more of it, haha. The rest starts on Monday.
What should I do on this short holiday?~~
x
Sacchan
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Date: 2017-06-04 02:38 pm (UTC)And I honestly believe him, kind of.
Ganbarou ;-;
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Date: 2017-05-31 08:00 pm (UTC)As a high school student who's always used to procrastinating all her life but still (somehow? I thank Allah for it:') ) get high marks, I realized I need to get my act together and stop being lazy as well ....... but it's just hard T.T ~ like how do people commit through their daily boring routines such as studying ? i never understood those who study right after they come home, I mean bruh its finals next week and I am not studying AT ALL !!
Sorry I had to rant as well xD but to get rid of this horrible habit of procrastinating it will require great hard work and commitment, no matter how small the difference is at least you are making progress and will gradually achieve that goal :D ! , I hope for such change in myself before i go to med school ( i know, how come alot of people go to med school ? x'D) anyways good luck to you and me! >:3
I wouldn't advise you to do any studying on your holiday instead have fun and enjoy yourself so later on, you could focus on your exams ^^
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Date: 2017-06-04 02:42 pm (UTC)I get what you mean soooo much. My scores in high school were at least above average and I'm very thankful for it, haha. I just realize as time goes by and as I get older the method of trying to cram everything a night before the test is super impossible and unrealistic, which is a sad, sad truth.
Though honestly med school didn't change me that much, lol. It just makes me panic so bad and have nervous breakdowns cause the amount of materials to remember is just inhumane.
Good luck to getting into med school though! It's just the beginning of the journey X'D The rest is figuring out how to get out (graduate) of med school LOL
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